just unwinding tonight... not too many emails and no one i want to chat with at the moment seeing as both Adam and Sann are gone for the night. (sann is going to work and Adam went to watch emeril or go to bed or something)

i worked today from 5-9:45pm so I am not doing too bad. Actually I was working in the domestics department, sorting out everything, so i really did not talk to anyone unless people needed to be directed to the bathrooms or something... so while i kept to the task at hand i did some thinking... probably more than I should have... and thinking about christmas shopping too.... aiee.... not just that but a lot of things.... sometimes i think it is good not to think so much....

I've been doing ok, the usual concerns... and thoughts about my roommate for college, some odd things and stuff that I'm not sure about and some issues that I do not know what to do with myself and then fighting my dreams and my mind... Dreams are a weird thing lately... they haunt me in the daylight hours.. i think about them a lot... like what is the meaning... it's nothing like pizza but it is definately about people... what does it mean.

the last dream i had that i remember i woke up before i could give a reaction...but dreams fight my mind now and then... nothing bad, but just too much thinking...

and then when i work my brain is in a constant replay.... i can replay things i have talked about hours days or months ago...that can be haunting too...i always wonder why i choose to say something and not say something else or why i even did some things. or what are my feelings on issues... do those feelings still remain the same... sometimes i wonder if what i was looking for ... if i found it...

then i think about people i know and my connections to them... i am running short on time and some people i just cannot afford to give time to. So i guess that is another thing i have to sort out... some people have no personality online... either that or i am a mass mailed penpal... they are like a machine sending the same message to 50 people. i just do not have the heart to give them anything official... like an official "please leave me alone". goodness this is all hard...

then working on my webpage at a godly hour... just is not going to happen. it is nearly 1 am again.

today i went to redemption rock with my friends Shannon and Janean. it was cool. we took Skye--her dog with us too. it was a lot of fun. just in time for going to work and things.

I think I will make some purchases for my christmas shopping tommrow.

I want to explain something about my christmas shopping. first of all I start in the summer... usually in august or something and i buy things as i see them... usually it is like "hey that's cool--I think so and so would like it" because it is so much better to say, "hey I found this and thought of you, so I bought it." and usually i buy unique things... things most people do not find anywhere else... otherwise i'll make things in August and have them ready for christmas time. I do listen to christmas music in August... and thankfully I have not pulled out any christmas music yet! heheh...does "Itsuka no merry christmas" count?? i have played that in june and july! heheh...my goal is to get all my christmas shopping done before Dec. 1st.

I guess I am not stressed... enjoy my entry of what Bruce would call riddles...maybe he will figure this one out. i am not sure though...goodnight!