just unwinding tonight... not too many emails and no one i want to chat with at the moment seeing as both Adam and Sann are gone for the night. (sann is going to work and Adam went to watch emeril or go to bed or something)

i worked today from 5-9:45pm so I am not doing too bad. Actually I was working in the domestics department, sorting out everything, so i really did not talk to anyone unless people needed to be directed to the bathrooms or something... so while i kept to the task at hand i did some thinking... probably more than I should have... and thinking about christmas shopping too.... aiee.... not just that but a lot of things.... sometimes i think it is good not to think so much....

I've been doing ok, the usual concerns... and thoughts about my roommate for college, some odd things and stuff that I'm not sure about and some issues that I do not know what to do with myself and then fighting my dreams and my mind... Dreams are a weird thing lately... they haunt me in the daylight hours.. i think about them a lot... like what is the meaning... it's nothing like pizza but it is definately about people... what does it mean.

the last dream i had that i remember i woke up before i could give a reaction...but dreams fight my mind now and then... nothing bad, but just too much thinking...

and then when i work my brain is in a constant replay.... i can replay things i have talked about hours days or months ago...that can be haunting too...i always wonder why i choose to say something and not say something else or why i even did some things. or what are my feelings on issues... do those feelings still remain the same... sometimes i wonder if what i was looking for ... if i found it...

then i think about people i know and my connections to them... i am running short on time and some people i just cannot afford to give time to. So i guess that is another thing i have to sort out... some people have no personality online... either that or i am a mass mailed penpal... they are like a machine sending the same message to 50 people. i just do not have the heart to give them anything official... like an official "please leave me alone". goodness this is all hard...

then working on my webpage at a godly hour... just is not going to happen. it is nearly 1 am again.

today i went to redemption rock with my friends Shannon and Janean. it was cool. we took Skye--her dog with us too. it was a lot of fun. just in time for going to work and things.

I think I will make some purchases for my christmas shopping tommrow.

I want to explain something about my christmas shopping. first of all I start in the summer... usually in august or something and i buy things as i see them... usually it is like "hey that's cool--I think so and so would like it" because it is so much better to say, "hey I found this and thought of you, so I bought it." and usually i buy unique things... things most people do not find anywhere else... otherwise i'll make things in August and have them ready for christmas time. I do listen to christmas music in August... and thankfully I have not pulled out any christmas music yet! heheh...does "Itsuka no merry christmas" count?? i have played that in june and july! heheh...my goal is to get all my christmas shopping done before Dec. 1st.

I guess I am not stressed... enjoy my entry of what Bruce would call riddles...maybe he will figure this one out. i am not sure though...goodnight!

after i took my shoes off i noticed a new injury on the inside of my foot.... a red bump on the bone thing.... fun.... so I'l limping along and stuff.... all for the joy of nature.... :P working my butt off as a cashier today and trying to revover the fitting room.... aiiieeee.....

today was interesting... I went on my nature walk today with my friends
this morning... the plan of attack for this adventure day was to start
at 8:10 am --me getting picked up by shannon and arriving at Janean's
house at 8:30.

Instead of this wonderful thought... I was awakened by the moaning of my
sister going "myja.... myja.... it's 8 o'clock!" so while I was trying
to sort out the importance I was like "oh crap! overslept" so i threw on
some jeans and a t-shirt and grabbed a bag and some food, socks and
shoes, and got dressed, ate breakfast and went with shannon. We were
just out the door and my mum was like "there is a thunderstorm warining
for all of the afternoon". so we took this into consideration and drove
to Janean's house... that is when I felt like a complete idiot!We called
Liz to see if she could go, she was not sure so then we left for our
trip in shannon's car...

after that we got into the car and drove to Otter River State Park, but
more so the Lake Dennison area. We drove up around the lake and stopped
to get some photos then we drove around some more and we found where
some trails started, but we did not know where to park, and there were a
lot of signs that said "parking $5.00" which was kinda insane for seeing
nature! so we finally found this guy in a beat up pick-up truck and we
were like " do you know where we can park?" and he said "anywhere! i've
been parking anywhere so long as it does not say 'no parking' but most
of that is only near the beaches" so we thanked him and pulled the car
over on the side of the road... then we started out on what we thought
was a trail... it started off kind of weird and we went up a hill... and
then we found some wild blueberries and ate them and continued on till
we found some blue markers on some trees and we started to follow them
until we found a sign that said "military boundary: do not disturb,
please contact [some unimportant military address of massachusetts]"
so we were like yeah ok, and thern we followed the makers down to the
main path.. so we went around in a small loop. then we decided to walk
down the paved road.... janean and shannon had some idea that we'd go
see some of those train tracks on the map.... i didn't think so, but we
went anyways. so we followed the paved path till it ended at this steep
hill with train tracks on top.... my mind was going " there is no way in
hell" but shannon and janean were already excited and climbing up to
train tracks. so I had nothing better to do than to follow... afterall I
was the 'voice of reason that they ignored' and i decided to go with
them so they did not do anything foolish!

so as soon as i reached the top with them i listened for a second and
Janean was like "I think I hear the train" so I was scooting myself down
the steep slope to get off the tracks part way and janean and Shannon
with me and they were like "get the camera!" so i proceded to get photos
of the train and i took about 6-7 shots and then I was like " do you
remember what happened last time?" "do you remember what you promised
last time?" " do you remember what i said on the phone?!?" they laughed,
ignored me and counted the rest of the 91 train cars... then we got back
up the slope and took a picture or 2 of the back of the train. I
proceded to yell at them for a while and they were like... there is a
trail on the other side of these tracks... lets's go find them on the
tracks. and I was like "no, you made your own trail up here, so lets go
back down and take a trail right next to the tracks down there" but they
were insistent that there was a trail on the other side so i agreed to
let them walk on the tracks for 5 minutes, if they could find a trail on
the other side in that amount of time then we would go on it. so lucky
for them they found a steeply sloped trail down off the tracks and we
walked near these dirt bike paths or something... there was a lot of
sand and smelly sand there.... and as we passed that we say these big
muddy brown mud puddles... andthey had green--bright green-- frogs in
them... the puddles were very gross!! but the frogs were cool... so we
made our way around the puddles and then we found a river... so we got
pictures of it and i dared shannon to touch the water... so she had to
reach down to touch it and janean--encourager of evil--helped grab hold
of her so she did not fall in from the high river bank... the river was
slow moving... and so it was kinda weird... also at this time we found
leaves and they decided it was a good idea to put ferns in people's
hair... so we did that for a while--thankfully leaves and herns did not
stay in my hair... so we moved on... and we found a bridge that went
under the train tracks... so we followed that and then we went through
some swammpy areas and found our way to a bridge that had fallen out or
something.... so shannon and janean had to stand right on the edge and
look all the way down the 20-30 foot drop. then they decided to sit on
the ledge... so scarry for me.... so i took a fe photos of them from a
side slope and then we stopped for lunch.

from there the sky had gone from partially couldy to fully clouded and
gray... so i was like... thunderstorms... we should plan on heading
back... so we made our way down and crossed a sunken swamppy bridge
thing... that got gross mud on our shoes!! after that we found this area
with lilly pads and things... very cool!
then we followed the trail to this high point in the middle of the swamp
thing...from there we could see our paved road and we were able to
determine the path to take to get to the car... so we got to the top end
of the paved road and made a loop. from there we sat at the crossroads
of the paved road and chilled out for a while... I took photos of some
flowers and janean and shannnon exchanged email addresses.... ther i
determined we should head back home or something so not to get in a
storm. but i also sugessted that we go to the middle school if a
thunderstorm did come... that way we could see the lightning and stuff
from a high point on a valley... hehehe....

so we piled in the car and decided since the car fit 6 people... that we
could have all 3 of us in the front seat. so we had janean in the middle
with us--or as she called it--"the pickle seat". so we drove back to
janean's house and crashed mrs. janean's mom's party for a while... i
refilled on water and we found out liz could have come with us afterall.
she called back for us as soon as we started down the road... so we
called her up and she had us over for a while...so we drove to Lizs
house and got a mini tour of her house and then we talked for a while
and went on the porch for soda...

does this get weird? you bet your life it does....

so anyways... i got a rootbeer, liz got a coke and janean got a sprite.
shannon does not drink soda... so we were talking and things and then
liz find this dragon fly stuck in a spider web so we spent a long time
getting it out of the web and freeing it... it was a difficult task with
a soda tab, scissors, pliers, a tiny piece of bark mulch and a something
spring catalog... so finally after sitting there with this poor
dragonfly that I was like... should have left it there.... it finally
flew away... meanwhile while freeing it i was trying to convince my
friends spiders are good things... and i pointed out the "either/or
game" with an option of a sleeping in a bed full of snakes or spiders...
they opted for snakes! gross!! so.... after that we had pliers out and i
forget who.. but i think liz started cutting into the top of her can
with the pliers... so then Janean started messing with the cans and they
were like "what would myja do with the soda can and pliers" so I said
"I'd cut the can open in a spiral... make a blade of some sort and kill
the neighbors' cat" and to that Liz was like... " that cat could be put
out of it's misery" ... so i punctured a hole in my can and then i
stopped for fear of freaking out liz' parents... so then after a while I
unraveled the can and made it into a spiral...this was quite cool!(Liz
has photos!) so then we were like... do some more... we all together we
drank 6 cans of soda un raveled them and made this weird spiraled soda
can thing.... looked like a wind chime thing... it was SO WEIRD....
Liz's dad saw it but was like "right...." and carried on.... so then we
talked some more and decided to try for next friday for an adventure!
and they dropped me off at home.....

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Thursday, July 21, 2005

Night Dive Current mood: awake this is an excert from my email to Bruce about my night dive on the 20th of July! I got back from my night dive and it was really fun. we went on one dive at dusk and one at night... both dives were great. I did not see as many shells though.... usually i see more shells on the ocean floor. a lot had occupants in them...but on the first dive we saw some good sized lobsters and some striped sea bass... crabs and the usual sea life. on the night dive we had our flashlights and it was really fantastic. We went out in a group and we saw some more lobsters--they came out and were kind of agressive.... they were more willing to defend themselves at night and one decided to have a "stand-off" with my dad's knee, cause it was moving close to him. then we saw some flounders, and some skates--- look like rays or something like that. then we saw a dogfish--looks like a 2 foot long shark. lol.... it swam right into my face. i got a good look at it. i also saw a sea raven and it ate a little fish right in front of me... it was kind of creepy...i did not get a photo but this is what they look like: http://www.gulfofmaine.org/times/summer2004/red%20sea%20raven.jpg i also got more photos of the moon. recently I've taken to photographing the moon and clouds at night and at the ocean i took some photos of the moon at the horizon... it was a flaming orange color. very pretty.... i also took some more when i got home. it was nice though because i got to sit on the beach and watch the moon from there... it was kind of romantic in feeling... except for the fact that i was in all my scuba gear.... for 2 seconds i was like "this is what i wished for the other night" well that's it... next journey is tommrow! a trip to targer (tjar-jeat), and a nature walk with janean and shannon! hate-ure of nature! lol

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

umass dartmouth orienteering session 5 the DOGS! Current mood: tired     Well... this is my first blog on here?!? before i have been using bravenet! it rocks there BTW! i love it! hehehe.... but for the last 2 days i have been at umass dartmouth's orientation! woot! it was kinda cool! 2 days... a 2 hour drive there and back.... it was ok.... on the 6th of july i had to wake up at 5:00 to get going for 5:30 on the road...i needed to be there for 8 am... so i drove and drove and drove till i got there. i went with my sister and my mum... so my mom drove and i slept in the back seat while Five Iron Frenzy, Stavesacre and Burlap to Cashmere were blairing in the stereo.      then i got my stuff out of the car, met the former president of the USA in the parking lot!he rocks! and he is only what? 17 or 18 years old?!? hehe... he is going for engineering or something... so we walked down to get our dorm assignments and I met my room mate, and i kinda sorted out my stuff. then i turned my cell phone on and read through the schedule of things and looked out the window for a bit. then i met my group of people and realized us females were out numbered! that's right, 80% of the people in this orientation session were males and only 20% of us were females.      So we ALSO found out that our groupn was the "DOGS" and our orientation leaders were Danielle and Mike. I was thinking --that weirdo with the stickers on from outside was my orientation leader! OH MY! so then they made me carry around a mascot for 2 days.... it was a dog called terrance or something.... so i threw it is my purse cause people did not want to take it. my roomate took the other mascot called samuel.      after this we did some boring icebreakers and saw some interesting skits, and all kinds of crap... ate fun dip and listened to the bell.... and had lunch and then did more crap and saw more skits and meetings and things... then we had dinner and went to a meeting thing and then we went to game night--cheated got in the top 4 and tried to score $200! but hey who was NOT cheating?!? everyone was cheating... i also found out what kind of an isolted Troll I really am. not to mention the whole ordeal of handing over my liscence as a photo id so that my team could get a controler for the game! that had me nervous and kinda paranoid. my team did all kinds of wild stuff to get on the stage! ^-^ *arigato team mates!*      after the game there was a dance party outside the dorms so i was like hey I'm going to sleep! so on the way up to my room i snagged a bag of chips and a diet sprite. i put on my pjs and went to bed. but my dorm was facing the speakers for the outdoor dance party, so i had to listen to it while falling asleep.... the phat beat, the diet sprite and my lack ofsleep created visions of winding roads.... weird views of cloudy skies and strange buildings behind my eyelids..... (I am completely drug free! lol) i had a headache too.... but that was besides the point.... i only wanted to sleep.      when i woke up my cellphone was ringing, i got a wake up call from my sister. that was good. so i got up, chugged the rest of that now flat diet sprite--gross!! got dressed, burshed my hair, and rolled my sleeping bag and then! the noise began! DRUMMING! louder than you could have ever imagined! it was in the center hall way. so i was done in the room and walked over to the loo to take care of some buisness and then i walked to the center hall way and watch the OL Mike drum like a crazy man and i was like "i hope no one slept through that" and he was like "usually i walk through the halls playing the noise!" so to that i was like... I'm going to wait outside. so i got down in the lobby and heard about the bombings in london and talked to Sahn(hope I spelled it right). so we talked about break dancing and stuff and how i was a party pooper! then we all walked to breakfast and then went to some meetings for the morning. then we watch a skit and stuff, then had a meeting with out class advisors and then got my school id--another bad photo for my collection!! had lunch and talked with Sahn about anime and manga--the day before i finished battle angel's translation and was reading tokyo babylon's translation. so we had fun then, and i got Sahn and Jessica's email addresses. then we went for a slide show and stuff. then we left and got our gear and went for home.      on the way home we stopped by some stores and i bought some dorm things and then we drove all the way home. the i watched L/R's episodes 1 and 2 and then i decided to come online for a bit.      at the store i bought some new books one called "killing papparazi" and another called "praise for a frosty mustashe"?? i think, lol.... also i bought a CD for Jerry--i own a copy of the CD but i though it would be cool to send him a copy of it too. I also bought some more costume jewlery--yay! and a french cd? very odd. i will play it later maybe. I also bougt Anneliese a bookmark from my campus and a pin for jerry cause he sent me once before. ^-^ got to go see you later! doing emails and downloading more gackt!!

lol..... it was insane!

baka baka bop!

working on my finals..... so much has been going on...  prom etc.... it was fun!

got some malice mizer cds and final exams....and finals for pc art and cad drawings.... aaaiiieeee.... it's so crazy... malice mizer is awesome.... i love the style of the music it is sooo good!

i want to get all the music they have done!and some cool pictures of them too... especially gackt.*sighs* gackt! hehehe.....

plays some of the last gackt cd i got in my head.... oooo

makes me tingle...

NEED SLEEP!!!

ok... a little warped today?? no problem....

I've made notecards and dl a namie armuro song--yuck! ... I'm a naughty protodevlin.... I want macross songs.... and gamlin pictures.... I'll take some of my own today.

I watched macross 7 the movie last night... it kinda fits in the middle of the series' season 2 I think.... well anyways its odd. it doesn't really fit in with the rest of the series too much... it's more of a side story... kinda like episodes 50-52 of macross 7.

still hunting stuff and trying good old hotbot.... heheh....

I've had some weird quotes this week.

"aoshi aoshi pudding pie, lopped off their heads and made them cry"

" crap ain't holy, shame on you!"

"it's hard to teaching spell you" --I did say that! haha

and I've done some internet slang translations:

lmao = licking my awesome orangutangs!

I will translate more by request, so tag em here! ^-^

the internet is like matrix jelly, some days is has everything good and the other times it just turns to spam... today is a spam day...

if I was an evil overlord, I'd have have counter clockwise spiral staircases and kill all the left handed knights! --or put them under my spell.....

sayonnara!

konnichiwa baka ne!

just came back from vacation.... 52 glorious episodes of Macross 7! hot stuff there! woot!

Gamlin-san is awesome!

this site ticks me off: http://www.geocities.com/tokyo/club/3748/web/song.html

I'm like the protodevlins after anima spiritia!! me wants these songs:

light the light ~~"love will save your heart"

holy lonely light

pillow dream

my soul for you acoustic

sweet fantasy

Kimi ni todoke - 'Reaching For You'

 

that's it! I think if I don't get them I'm going to run around screaming "lets go" and "listen to my song!" and weird stuff like that.

*sighs* that really really stinks!! me wants the songs wicked badly!! *aaarrroooooooo--howling like the protodevlin sivil*

I think my fav protodevlin is Gigil! he's so sweet and struck by love.... how cute.... the song "my soul for you" truly goes out to him! it's his song! ^-^

I'm half tempted to figure out hotw to get the songs off of the DVD even onto a cassette! me wants to hear them.... aaarrroooo

hummm..... finals are done....
listen to anberlin.....
go sleep like a kitty.....
watch a movie...
cruise like tom.....
aiieeee.......
that was wrong
this haiku is bad...

this song is stupid
don't play it on the raido
no not anberlin
I was making a FIF ref there buddy...

stick to kimi ga oikiketa yume...
you will never get that wrong....